-In the Mood-
Every once in a while, I get into these moods where all I want to do is listen to depressing music or watch a really depressing movie. Sometimes they don't have to be depressing as much as melancholy. When it comes to movies, I seem to eat up anything that is independent, soulful, and has a unique soundtrack to match. And it gets really cool if the cinematography is done well. Muted colors or even that grainy feel. I love it. And then there's the music. There is just something about it that carries my mood and feeds my soul. I don't know why it has such an effect on me. Low tones and minor chords. And the weird thing is, sometimes my mood doesn't have to mirror the kind of music I need. Like yesterday for example. I had such a bad day. Nothing seemed to go right. Because of the thunderstorms in the area, our phone wouldn't really work, one of my favorite shows couldn't come in due to bad reception (we don't have cable), and I missed a meeting for the tech team at my church. Just missed it by an hour because I thought it started at 7 instead of 6. But after all was said and done, I think I was more frustrated than melancholy. So the depressing music didn't seem to do it. But today, I am totally there. And to be honest, I'm not even in a bad mood. Not really depressed. More like blah. And since I seem to have more of those days than any, I have a list of songs that put me in that spot of self reflection with a mournful soul. Sometimes when I am done listening to my music, I feel much better. Like it was just what I needed to pull me out. I actually have this CD I made of songs I heard from different soundtracks. All of them songs I instantly gravitated to as I watched the movies they were in. And as I made my CD, I slowly worked it so the lighter songs were at the end. I think I did such an awesome job because that is definitely a CD that helps bring me out of the blahs. Movies are a little trickier for me. They more than often have the opposite effect. Because I love the movie more when the ending isn't all nice and neat. But of course that means I feel even worse when I'm done watching it. So I don't view the movies as much as I listen to the music. Plus, I can listen to the music even as I work.
Look at me. I have just rambled about something that most of you could probably care less about. And for those of you who do, you may find that I know absolutely nothing about which I am speaking of. But I can say I do know what I like. Maybe it's time to pop in that soundtrack CD and finish the second half of my day.
Song of the day: Save Me
By Remy Zero
shawanda
11:16 AM
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