-How Long Can It Last-
.two years ago
before you felt so familiar
before i could remember
your last name
i remember now
how our bright spring green deepened
with the years the seasons changed
and we were lush as the underside of august
the streets looked like water
they swelled and they shimmered
and they stretch like the sea
and dressed in my best shining skin
and my squinty eyes
i put the miles behind me
.and it took us so long to get here
you gotta write between lines
you gotta read between the years
and fleetingly we see ourselves pass
driving a good thing
and wondering how long can it last
.and there was much to forgive
and there was much to forget
it seems we both stood by
while the record was set
and now when i look at you
and when you look at me
it's a much different view
we are both decked out in our history
.and it took us so long to get here
you gotta write between the lines
and read between the years
and fleetingly we see ourselves pass
driving a good thing
and wondering, how long can it last
.how long can it last
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Ani DiFranco
shawanda
5:13 AM
-Beyond Comprehension-
.No one hears me, understands me
I speak in silence
hoping that someone will see my words, my message
hoping to find love, it has arrived so divine
I wish for a stronger, better life
filled with everlasting touch
I dream the future, but hold the past
My body is brimmed with so many confusions
Am I really here experiencing fullness?
I must be, the pain is so real
the hurt I feel could never be imagined
but I will pull through into greatness
and destroy whatever faces into me
As I struggle I will fight until the end
Whenever it may come
-
Lauren Montelbano
shawanda
5:04 AM
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-The Morning After-
.Well, it's official. . .I am out of my mind! Yesterday I included myself among some of you who were present at Karen's wedding. I had been looking forward to going for quite some time and couldn't wait to see the faces of friends that I have not seen in what can only be considered as too long. The problem however was that my trip to Las Vegas with John ended with both of us getting some kind of bug that apparently has been going around here in Illinois.
.John's body seems to be handling things rather well whereas my body never does. So two days before the wedding I start seeing symptoms. First it's the sore throat that lasts a day and a half and makes it impossible to swallow.
(Thank God for popsicles.) Then came the awful congestion and endless runny nose that no matter how many times you blow, never seems to end. This is where I was come yesterday morning. Add to that my lack of sleep due to the aforementioned symptoms. My head told me that the only choice to make was to stay home and try to get as much sleep as I possibly could. Nevertheless, my heart wouldn't let me.
.So I tagged along with John and Jessica and made the trip to Peoria to see our beloved friend Karen say, "I DO." I hugged and laughed with many of you. I even danced a little which helped clear my sinuses. And despite the fact that I blew my nose every 5 minutes, could barely breathe through most of the ceremony, and couldn't really enjoy the amazing food offered, I had a great time.
.But the morning after is a @*$%#! I woke up this morning feeling awful!! My body ached from the dancing, I have completely lost my voice, and I feel as if a Mack truck ran over me a hundred times. I apologize to those of you reading who are now sick because of me and my icky germs. I hope you can forgive me. But it was just soo good seeing you all that I know if given the choice - I would do yesterday all over again.
shawanda
3:34 PM
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