-Soul Search-
.Have you ever had a time in your life where things just seemed to move too quickly? That's kind of how I'm feeling lately. I told John that I wanted to take a break from life yesterday and at first, he had a hard time understanding what I meant by it. I'm sure it's because I have a hard time explaining what I mean. And what I mean is that I wish I had some time (maybe a week or so) where I could really process all the things that are going on around me.
Really process them. I feel like even though things are hectic and life-changing decisions are being made, I'm suppose to take it all in during my allotted time and simply move on. One of the biggest things going on right now is the restructuring of Apex. God has totally blessed us with someone who can help us organize and plan in a big picture way. All the leaders (4 of us) had a mini-retreat where we did some heavy strategic planning. It was great and very beneficial. But I walked away feeling soo overwhelmed. I'm still not sure where my place will be in the ministry this next year or even if I want to be big part of the leadership team. I would love to participate for a month without having the responsibility of being in charge. As soon as the weekend was over, I had to quickly move on to the next big thing. And because Apex is starting our fall season soon, all the planning and reorganizing is happening soo fast.
.I have tried lightening my schedule a little by taking a break from some things like worship team for a while. I thought it would help. But it wasn't until yesterday - talking with John - that I realized it's not just a matter of having too much stuff to do. This is more an issue of having important stuff to deal with and not allowing myself enough time to digest it all. I'm thinking I might sneak away one day next week to really absorb and sort out everything. At least it will be a good start.
shawanda
11:18 AM
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